I saw us...

After everything that happened with Andy and me in 2006, we struggled to find ourselves together again. We walked on egg shells around each other. I didn't really know what to say to him a lot of the time. Thursday, August 10, 2006, there was a moment when it all changed.

age 24

I saw us...

I saw you today.

As you talked about your dream, I saw you-

when your eyes shined a little brighter,

when your smile came easily.

I saw me today.

As I passed the hall mirror, I saw me-

in my head that was held high,

in my confident gaze.

I heard you today.

As we said goodbye and I love, I heard you-

no longer trying to convince me it was real,

no longer not believing it yourself.

I heard myself today.

As I laughed at your silly comment, I hear me-

Not wondering if you meant it,

Not wondering if you wished it was someone else's laugh.

I saw us today.

As you told me a story in the car, and I rolled my eyes- I saw us.

We were talking without a mountain between us.

We were laughing as if we'd never hurt each other.

I saw us today.

Maybe only for a moment.

But you were there,

and I was there.

We were together again.

The us that existed before

You lost your way

And I lost my mind.

Maybe we'll find our way back.

We'll be rescued from the hell we drove ourselves into.

The rain will fall, and we can dance in it.

We'll watch the stars from the mountains again.

In the clouds, we can find elephants and baboons.

I saw us today.

I'm hoping to see us again.

I think I will.